When will I be enough?

I hate seeing people pulling away from each other in different directions, yet I have no idea how to stop it. And everything I do seems to be making it worse. Maybe it's God way of telling me I'll never be enough as long as I rely on myself..

I feel like I'm screaming at the top of my lungs but no one can hear.

I need a breather, away from everything and everyone.

I gotta take a step back, cool down, and look at the bigger picture... and maybe see that those days and nights were nothing but days and nights. Even so, I'm so sick of all that is uncalled for, all that is redundant, all that is upsetting to the souls and unhealthy for the minds. They can continue walking I'll just turn and walk the other way for now!

Thank God for seeing me through December, for seeing me through Christmas, YF Camp, and for the entire year of 2011. The gratitude is unutterable but nevertheless deep rooted down in my heart. The dearest and best God of the whole world and universe, the One i can always lean back on and look to in the most despondent of times. YF camp 2011 brought me a mixture of so many feelings that I had to go through all at once... it was awakening.

Because He Lives

God sent His son, they called Him Jesus
He came to love, heal, and forgive.
He lived and died to buy my pardon,
An empty grave is there to prove my Savior lives.

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone.
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living just because He lives.

How sweet to hold a newborn baby,
And feel the pride and joy he gives.
But greater still the calm assurance,
This child can face uncertain days because He lives.

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone.
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living just because He lives.

And then one day I'll cross the river,
I'll fight life's final war with pain.
And then as death gives way to victory,
I'll see the lights of glory and I'll know He lives.

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone!
Because I know He holds the future
And life is worth the living just because He lives!

Words: Bill & Gloria Gaither

The New Normal

If I could wish upon tomorrow

Tonight will never end

Two nights in a row of feeling so blessed with great friends around me. Thank God for happy days like these, even in the midst of the most heartbreaking ones. Haha satisfied my Beard Papa cravings and now I think I'm hooked onto Tako balls. This gotta stop hahahaha. Good thing Yf camp's starting soon, I guess :)

I've never felt so busy in December, but this is all good. All things for God is and will be good, yepp! Random thought: I kinda miss carolling heehee.

Hey Purple Dinosaur you officially turned 18 two days ago, and I'm so glad we spent it together with JA the SBB too. :} Heehee anywayyy, see you in 2012 again, we'll ask Pling and Deaf Knee along this time round! And Jia Ai your post was so sweet XOXOXO

& BBFF, we'll get out of this sticky situation together and not be trapped in it any longer, k? It's funny how we are going through exactly the same stuff but with different people hahaha, loved yesterday and can't wait for my life to be flooded with such days! Heehee and yep it's BBFF :}

You're out of sight but not out of mind.

Thank God for the great weather today. Dry run was, considerably successful I guess? I'm really praying that the Yf camp will run smoothly. Thank you everyone for making time for tonight :)

I reached home nearly an hour ago and I can't wait to quickly take a shower and hop into bed hahaha. But before that... I was looking through some pictures just a few minutes ago, and it just occured to me how good times never last. We should always be contented still, because we've had those moments, no matter how short they were. It was only a few days, but they can last me a lifetime because the pictures have the ability to speak thousands of words that I can never utter, or describe to match the very least. They bring me back to the exact moment when I can almost feel all the same feelings. Except knowing it's all overrrr.



Hm and somehow, I find my name becoming a taboo among my friends. Hahaha oh well... :( SIGH SAD LIFE.

At One Go.

Kho-Hot Ruimin guess what, knowing you miss me makes me miss you so much more HAHA. And it's probably only 50 hours since the last time we met but I feel like meeting you againnnn, like, NOW!!! Heehee that's a good sign, right? Anyway you know I'm so busy with you-know-what lately and I feel so worn down these days but I know you are right, when everything works out for the best I'll be happy too! Currently I'm thinking about that lovely watch we saw but I'm gonna keep to my promise and stop splurging for quite a while and save up hahaha. SIGH. Okayyy you better update me soon about you-know-who heehee can't wait! Pretty Little Liars is keeping me in great suspense, only I can't watch them in one go (as much as I want to!!!) cos I have other pressing things waiting for meeeee. Alrighty love you and why does this sound like a diary entry. XOXO!

I'm no counterfeit.

Hi RuiminK I think we rock hahahaha you make me less of an embarrassment when we are together!

We should have more days like that. Oh, and don't you think it's funny we are kinda, almost, going through the same thing? Haha but yeah you are right we should all be n.o.r.m.a.l. and forget all the other confusing things. :)

This night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning burning down
Dark blue dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning dark blue

We were boxing
We were boxing the stars
We were boxing we were boxing
You were swinging for Mars
And then the water reached the West Coast
And took the power lines the power lines
And it was me and you this could last forever
And the whole town under water
There was nothing we could do
It was dark blue

Love, love this.