Cut.

Stop being so self-centred.

It's amazing how God convicted me through enabling m to witness the actions and words of the people around me. Some kind, some compassionate, some selfless.


There's a day when you realise that you're not just a survivor, you're a warrior.

Months Later.

Our memories give us voice. They bear the witness to history, so that others might learn, so they might celebrate our triumphs and be warned of our failures.

Got back our GP prelim today, and I'm really thankful for the results. It's my best I've done for GP, ever. Prayerfully I can produce the same kind of work for A's, or better. I feel so undeserved. Thank God! The other subjects... hm that's another story altogether. I gotta buck up like, so much more. C'mon few more months. No, weeks actually. :/

I played basketball today, after what seems like ages. Heehee it feels really good after not touching the ball for so long. Catching up with last year's classmates like Shawn and Gerald was really heartening too, had a great laugh with them! :)

On a side note, I need to start running more.. feeling so unfit hehehe.

"Some trust in chariots, and some in horses: but we will remember the name of the LORD our God." Psalm 20:7

Chasing Cars

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

It gets so tiring to chase after that which will never stop for a moment to look back, or slow down in its truest desire for you to catch up with. It's pointless chasing after something you know is not intended for you, not meant to be, and seemingly out of reach.

We never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory. So apt.

Seeing friends leave, literally or figuratively, it's all sad. Yet why do we only realise what we have when we lost it? Or in a totally different scenario, even when we cherish those around us very much, why can't we stop them from going away anyway? I guess.. cos' meeting and parting, that's life, that's all a part of God's greater plan to let us know we are so small, so defenseless to time and His purpose.

Anyway, lunch with Joanne and Shuyi today was great. I'm glad we got to catch up after months of drifting apart. Well, not really. Just, we've had less contact. Sad to say, Joanne's gonna leave for UK next Mon! Oh well she'll be back because she loves Singapore. HAHA it's okay, we part to meet again! :)

The day after that was just hours of chilling with Lynnie, and we made new discoveries and motivation today heehee! Can't wait for us to put plan into action oh yeah hahaha :}

Fallout.

Heroes is likea cool.

Loving Peter Petrelli and Claire. Okay that's my small dose of treat after Prelims, which sad to say, should stop soon. Like, POSSIBLY end of today. HAHA.

Anyway, there's a lot weighing on my mind.. and all's more or less the same things I keep replaying in my head over and over again for the last few weeks. It's hard trying to push those thoughts away, but I guess it's better to do without them, anyway.

Pain, is weakness leaving the body.

That's, comforting to know at the very least.

Brighter than the sun.

Late night mugging, afternoon naps, morning frenzy. It's not gonna end here, it's gonna be doubly intense from here henceforth. BRING IT ON! :)

Hahahahahaha I say this easily because my prelims end today. And a couple of days later I won't guarantee the frown won't be back. In any case, I'm gonna stay P.O.S.I.T.I.V.E. or at the very least, TRY. Come what may! Anyway, the stats paper today was more than a little difficult to me, if you ask. But no complaints, just gonna work harder. The History paper was killing my master hand and no amount of massage seemed to work in the midst of that 3hrs, not that I had any time to massage my hands for that matter. (Unlike some of my classmates who had spare time to SOLVE MATHS QUESTIONS after completing their essays, like seriously?! HAHA.)

Bus ride to tpy(hilarious), train ride to dhoby. Bus ride to Parkway, bus ride home. Spending 4 whole hours with LeeJA wasn't too bad. Hahahha she's gonna kill me if she sees this, after I sent her a "so shweet text" heehee. It was a blast and almost as if we had no more exams, ever. If only! Anyway, it's nice to relieve old times and joke around like foooools with the classmates. And seeing how far we've all come. I bet our jokes were so funny strangers wanted to laugh too. It wouldn't be so annoying if we weren't so noisy, though. 

TROUBLE IS A FRIEND.

Trouble he will find you no matter where you go, oh oh
No matter if you're fast, no matter if you're slow, oh oh
The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn, oh oh
You're fine for a while but you start to lose control

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh
So don't forget as you ease on down the road

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel
And how I try to make him leave, I try!
Oh oh, I try!

I won't say Prelims is off to a good start. Not since the first GP paper. Then History paper 2 which I completely wrote out of point for one of the three questions. And Maths paper 1 which I know I could have prepared for more than I did. CSE, and finally Econs paper 1 today which I didn't manage to finish. But I'm gonna take it in my stride and just work harder for A levels! No time for misery and self-doubt. God is with me. :)

These two days, I start to once again appreciate the things and people around me more than I have for months too. I guess that's why God puts us through fiery trials in the first place, so that we can better learn how to cope with greater challenges ahead and rise above ourselves. Life's tough but God is good!

It's not your situation which has changed, but your perception.

Press on!

MAD RUSH! Okay, I spent the earlier part of today hitting the books and enjoying the rarely cool weather.. in between thinking back on how things were last year, or the year before. Things aren't gonna get easier from here, and if anything, it'll just be more challenging. Life is an arduous journey, and I don't think I can ever complete it without God's grace. It's time to re-shift my priorities, sensing that things are getting out of hand.

"... but we still pursue them and puzzle over why we cannot stop doing it."

I Don't Wanna Be.

Hihihihihihihihi I'm back after a very confused phase of my life.

I don't wanna be someone I know I'm not, so it's all gonna stop here. HAHA I read most of my older posts and I realised I've been a VERY SAD PERSON FOR THE PAST YEAR OR SO! HAHA. Not gonna dwell anymore.

thanks Kemei for your postcard... hmm I think it's, "spectacular" even though you don't think so HAHA! It was great studying with you yesterday, though I was busy sniffing and dealing with migraines :( Haha & our failed attempts at making Kho Rm jealous! But it was fun nevertheless, laughing at her smses that she herself had no idea was so hilarious. :)

& thanks for waking me up at 6.30am today like you said you would heehee.

On a side note, Lynnie injured her hand by smashing it into a light bulb and landed in A&E 2 days ago! I had a total shock of my life I called her immediately only to realise she wasn't answering. Hahahah then she texted me like 2hrs later to tell me she's fine. Anyway, how she landed in that situation is beyond me haha, gonna listen to her story SOON. Don't text so much already Wuen Lynn haha!

Okay, the weather is erratic and everyone is falling sick lately. Okay, or maybe just me... hmm taking a panadol each day for 5 days straight now :{ It's time to stop before I get hooked :/ Yep so anyway, take care all of you peeps because... exams are just round the corner. Boohoo! :(