The Man Who Can't Be Moved.

Love this band, love this song, love this story. Really sweet :)

The Script.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do
How can I move on when I've been in love with you

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
Policeman says son you can't stay here
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl, oh whoa
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world
Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'Cause you'll know it's just for you

Wordless.

Just one of the days I suddenly, really miss Fernando.. Not to mention just the day after Liverpool won the Carling Cup and he's not part of any of it.

Ok warning: a whole chunk of words about that pretty boy up there so don't scroll down if you're gonna be annoyed (probably, maybe understandably) at my endless rantings about him and of my long walk down the memory lane of Fernando Torres AGAIN sigh..(really redundant and rhetorical but... why oh why Torres?)

& it pains my heart still, whenever I come across all the articles filled with critics attacking him. But all of these are part and parcel of the 'glamourous' soccer celebrity life that I have no business having a say in, and there's nothing I can do to stand up for him. :( What he has gone through when the fans were hating him.. that must have been hell lot of a difficult time and I can't imagine how he must have felt. Broken perhaps. And for staying strong, I admire him so much. OK REGARDLESS WHAT THE WORLD SAYS. I hold strongly my stand in believing that he has his reasons for doing what he did. And really, I just wish for him to start showing the world what he is truly made of and continue making his presence felt on the pitch. Haha he's so gonna leave everyone awestruck again. Yes he will, he will. Fernando Torres isn't dead, nope he isn't. Can I just say again, I really miss him!!!! :'(

Anyway, seeing Xabi's tweets about Liverpool always brings a smile to my face and warms up my (still healing) heart because it just reminds me how much he loves the club even after transferring to Real. Haha what amused me yesterday most was his tweet during the penalty. #inpepewetrust HAHA HOW CUTE IS THAT SERIOUSLY?! And read an article about him claiming always to love Liverpool and his decision to "raise his Liverpool-born son as a Red supporter". Awwwww :*

OKAY AND THE HIGHLIGHT: CONGRATS LIVERPOOL WE DID IT! CARLING CUP 2012 CHAMPIONS. Haha who cares if it's not as prestigious as the other awards, it's still a number 1 yeahhhh. Hahah as for the Barclays Premier League, hmm let's try again next year! Meanwhile there's definitely a chance to be in the top 4 #foreverhopeful c'mon :)

PS, Cardiff City goalkeeper Tom Heaton was awesome, respect.

Go Reds!

My body's here but my heart's at Wembley with them Reds bwahaha!

C'mon Liverpool :)

From Xabi darling on twitter, "Come on Reds!! All the best pals."

Shows exactly where his heart still lies teehehe!

Empty Apartment.

“Sometimes our light goes out, but is blown again into instant flame by an encounter with another human being.” — Albert Schweitzer

On the same note, I don't know how much longer I can live so lifelessly. Or when will my light come back. Not literally of course, because I'm in a very good place of my life right now. Or, nearly-good. (Since our predicament in life is always so mercurial and quick to change) But one way or the other, I still thank God for the simple things in life, the many blessings we oft forgot or refuse to count. I guess I've been more happy these few months than I've been the last few months leading up to the actual A level exams. So really, I'm contented. But to be honest, I doubt that myself despite claiming so for countless times. Because I know there's always a problem I have to face, a problem I'd rather avoid and have been doing so, a knot to be untied but have no idea of how to go about doing so.

It was only today that I came to the realisation that next Friday does not only hold the stake of my A level results in relation to the course of my life from henceforth, but will (perhaps more importantly) determine the outcome of my relationships with the closest people I've been around all my life.

I don't think relatable human beings are so easy to find. And that's why I think such encounter will just have to wait, or happen only to others.

On the surface, I am key to change. But in actual fact I don't have a choice in any of this, do I? My choice is in deciding. But what if I don't want to?

I tried asking myself, what would God do?

But all that I have in my head is, blank.

I may only have to keep praying. But time's short..

Mac & Cheese

Since we first got to know each other 2 years ago, little has remained the same, yet little has changed.

xoxo,

BB :)

We're hiding behind skin that's too tough

Sometimes to avoid getting hurt, we walk around with spikes in our skin like porcupines in an extreme and desperate attempt to build a barrier between those whom we really care for and ourselves. We distance ourselves from them for the only selfish reason- to be protected from heartbreaks. And in the course of pushing others away, we hurt them instead, ultimately bringing a greater pain and the worst agony to ourselves. All that we take away from it is piercing regret.


You're in the dark
There's no one left to call
And sleep's your only friend
But even sleep
Can't hide you from all those tears
And all the pain and all the days
You wasted pushin' them away
It's your life, it's time you face it

People and Things

"I thought I knew you. But I guess it's easier to see what we want than to look for the truth. You think you know me but you don't. And that means you don't know what I can do."

Recently I've been drawn to a recurring thought... which is, is anyone in this world ever completely, absolutely, and perfectly reliable?

Bu bu jing xin. Can one's first love be different from one's true love? Haha it just puzzles me in a very stinging manner. I know it's just a show, but just like how a book can evoke many conflicting emotions and agitated feelings, the whole plot leaves within me a lingering air of gloominess yet at the same time, longing for more. If love is really love, shouldn't first love be one's true love? But the whole concept of it is far more complicated and obscure for me or maybe even anyone else to grasp.

I look at how things and people around me have changed or come to a standstill lately, and I wonder, what changed? Some people said, feelings never change but people do. Really?

Anyways, I'm finally recovering so reallyyyyyy thank God for that! It's been a 'painful' three weeks haha. Okay and, I'm gonna have to start exercising again. I mean, seriously. Oh and last day at MKG today was.. heartwarming. Sigh, gonna miss the children the most, obviously. :')

At this point of time, I know fearing and worrying is basically pointless, yet the heart still grows anxious as the month of March draws near. Everyday's practically a reminder to me of how weak i am in contrast to the Almight God.

Oh and hey Aunty Lee and Purple Dino, I tried uploading the pictures but to no avail haha no kidding! But I will keep trying chillax manzxzxz you two heehee :}