This morning you see.

It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from
desperation.

How apt.

Hmm how do I say this?

I guess it simply is.. I've decided to stay true to my heart and do the right thing. Anyway either way it's gonna hurt so I probably should make it worthwhile. At least I get to see others happy yepppp haha, that's it. :)

And maybe just wanna say, I'll be here anytime you need, if you need.

& I thank God for you.

Just, thank God.

PIECEMEAL.

Have you ever come to a crossroad with your heart, wondering if it's best to let go and move on, or hang on to what means a lot to you, but having to live with the possibly heartbreaking consequence of your choice?

Anyway.

You are a gem and I don't want to lose you.. but maybe reality is the louder voice.

My head and my heart are pulling me in two opposite directions, and I honestly don't know what to do.

OKAY ON A LIGHTER NOTE:

LIVERPOOL VS MAN UTD, 1-1

Shall save on my comments because twitter is giving me enough headaches haha. Just glad to see Liverpool's decent play. And Man Utd was not bad either. Hehehehe Henderson & Gerrard made my day! :)

Untitled.

I read the lines and lines of priceless, heartfelt feelings you practically shout out with all your heart, pen down into words that translate into a sweet melody. It was all warm, but at the same time, a slap in the face.

The word is speechless.

The kind of jolt that wakes you up from a deep slumber. It's time to wake up. It's reality. It's... not you.

Your Big Heart.

One thing you should know, even if I'd said this to you many times for the past 2 years, it doesn't mean less each time I say it. Thank you JA.

I'll keep it short here. But anywhere here goes.. You are what made life in SA so colourful, so inexplicable for me. There were probably many uphills we went through together, but I believe those were needful as all these experiences taught me to recognise change, to accept change, and to change for the better. It all made me stronger, and you better than anyone else in school, should know that pretty well. :) There are (too many) times, you can read my intentions and know my thoughts without me expressing them vocally, and along with you being yourself, you make me so comfortable around you. Always. Haha, I think you bring out the most unglamorous in me. (not that I have anything to be glam about.......) OKAY I SHALL STOP HERE NOW. You can, await for the rest of my awesome message... which you'll receive maybe in 10 years down the road. Or sooner, heehee :}

Anyway, thank you for doing so many things for me. Countless. And I hope you know that without you, those things mean nothing. You always say you're not a good friend, but I feel otherwise. Yep, that's my thesis. I'm gonna fail this because I can't come out with any counter arguments.

(erm... okay, you are supposed to be laughing. but i guess not.so......kthxbye hehehehe)

The scariest thing about distance, is that you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget you.

& being so reluctant to forget what makes you sad, knowing it was what made you happy in the first place.

The Fix.

I feel like it's back to the last of my secondary school days, only worse. How do I turn impossible to possible? How do I continue to push forward when everything seems so gloomy ahead, and it's taking so much to resist whatever is holding me back?

I'm pretty contented for my prelim results for a couple of subjects, the others.. pure disappointment. But I need to stay calm, keep cool, and... do something about it. If I did it 2 years ago, why can't I do it again now? I just need to find back my faith, and be reassured of God's strength and grace, which is more than sufficient to pull me through.

So what if they are throwing doubts in your face, as if you don't have enough of them? It shouldn't matter that nobody sees your hard work or acknowledges your efforts, or believe in you. Those that do, that's good enough because ultimately you should be giving your best shot for the sole purpose of yourself, and more importantly the glory of God. The rest is in His hands. You know it, so even if the results speak otherwise now, what difference does it make? It's not the end, not yet. So what's all the negativity about, if you know, and believe, that everything is under control in God's time and plan?

Maybe something more.

This indescribable feeling... the questions bothering you, just let go of them.

Cos from this moment onwards nothing else should matter. It's not worth it. Get your priorities straight. Kthxbye.

So the end is near. But why does it matter? You have been looking forward to this for God knows how long... to end this confusing phase in your life, so why the sudden subtle tinge of melancholy that comes along with the knowledge that nothing's gonna change, or stay the same, for that matter? So many questions, so few answers. So many doubts, so little time..

You might as well get used to it now.

Love and Other Disasters.

Apparently, everything and everyone changed.

I don't know what to make out of it.. admittedly it was a bitter pill to swallow, that out of nowhere I didn't know where to place myself. Just like a piece of puzzle that comes together in the box don't seem to fit in with the rest anyhow.

You made me believe the friendship was built on concrete ground. But now I'm left wondering if it's hollow beneath it.. It is kinda sad, but if I'm trying too hard, then what's the point?

I slipped, but true friends hold onto me, they held on to me.