I'm freaking stupid.

It's like a slap to my face.

For the first time this year, I'm not expecting anything. I would have made the simplest wish- that we could all be happy and complete... But no, I don't think so. It's like wishes don't come true anymore and for the first time I'm seeing it.

Somehow I dread that day, knowing that on the day before that I will just crash and break down. I will realize, how real all of this is. And on that day itself, then what? I cringe at the thought of it.. Will I feel sorry for myself? Or would I even care? All I know now is that it will never be like past years. I've grown too detached from the dearest people around me. Or maybe not so dear, since the closest people (those that matter) will never leave you. But at this point, I can't say for sure what is genuine or not anymore.

All seems broken and irreconcilable.

I'd be contented to be surrounded by people I love and care about. But the dear friends are all over the world now, facing and dealing with different aspects of life (at least from mine), and doing what they can and ought to do. Somewhere inside me constantly reminds me of how irrelevant I'm becoming../

If it is born in flames then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can
And if it's gotta end then let it end in flames
Let it burn all the way down

SPAIN'S THE LOVE.

Haha I haven't found the time to blog for the past few days especially since it was hell of a week. But thank God I survived.

So now that there's more time on my hands (at least for now)...

CONGRATS TO SPAIN FOR WINNING THE EUROS 2012!!!!

Hahahaha I know it's been days and this is probably no longer news but to me it is and will always be. Hehe so proud of them ^^ I got so much to say but I'd probably write a 10,000 words essay about them (and the many repetitions of "I LOVE SPAIN") haha so I shall just keep it short. Anyway, it has been really heartening seeing them win the Euros '08, World Cup '10, and now the Euros '12!! They won twice consecutively and shut their critics up. (HAHA) Spain created history, and it was such a tear-jerking moment at the blow of the whistle, seeing how their efforts paid off :') And all the Spaniards with their kids? SO FREAKING CUTE. ESPECIALLY FERNANDO AND HIS LITTLE GIRL NORA AND LITTLE BOY LEO. SO CUTE I CAN'T TANK. Hehehe ^^ Just look at them, seriously. And all my heartthrobs xoxo!!

Fabregas's such an all-rounder and he played reallyyyy well the last match. In fact all of them did, too! Special mentions to Arbeloa, Pique, and Alba for fighting so hard to deter the opponent team from scoring. And Navas, whom has potential whooo! Silva with his awesome goals although I felt he kinda underperformed a little. Iniesta and Xavi are simply geniuses, and they have such great chemistry omg haha. Their passes and crosses are so accurate I always look forward to see them in action! And seeing Xabi and Torres (despite what the rest say) play is always a huge joy to me. And need I say more about Casillas? The best keeper of all time, it's like he has amazing multi-purpose fast reflexes hands!! I just love the whole Spain team, like SO MUCH SO MUCH. HAHA. Trust me, I desperately wished I was in the locker room with them during half time. Hehehe!

Not to mention... FERNANDO WON THE GOLDEN BOOT AWARD AHHH SO INTENSE HEHEHE!!! :}

So happy for him!!! He has been through so much criticisms and I just feel for him :( So seeing him win the Golden Boot Award gives me great satisfaction. Especially when practically nobody expected him to. And with Bosque excluding him for an ENTIRE game? I was so pissed! Hahaha but oh whatever coz eventually that helped him win the Golden Boot, too, with lesser playing time! So anywayyyyy, the guy deserved it for playing his ass off after all the doubts and speculation and failed attempts to prove his worth time and again. Despite what everyone says about him, I still believe he's an excellent striker. So I really hope this gives him the much needed confidence to perform in the coming season. I have faith in him hehehe ^^ Hoping for him to come back to Liverpool is probably wishful thinking so... I'll be happy as long as he's doing well!! Love you Torres HAHA.

AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, THANK YOU, SPAIN.